You've never been raped or have you ever had the desire of violence?



I was eighteen I was raped by three boys and a girl.
I have not been beaten. I have forced anal sex and blowjob.
it was all very humiliating to have sex without my consent.
after many years often remember the episode and strangely excite me the thought of being raped again.
Sometimes I go to places frequented by swingers and transsexuals or gay men as well as by many curious and my attitude and dress provocatively seeking a forced encounter.

who experiences similar?

 

30 yo married mom i was raped as well

 

Same here, I was raped when I was young and often I fantasize of it happening again.

 

I was 14.... it wasn't violent, but it was without my concent. I kept resisting, and saying NO!!!

He didn't stop and I ended up having an orgasm. I felt like my own body had betrayed me. I was shocked that I reacted that way and I cried when I did orgasm.

I had sex with him several more times

 

When I was 15 I was raped it hurt so much but I have never had an orgasm so many times during sex. I went back to the same place every night for 6 months hoping to be raped again

 

yeahhhhh............not.

Calling flat out BS on this one and those stating how they wanted it to happen again as there is a massive difference between resisting sex, rough sex......and rape.

Hush........an alias

 

Aside from hush, you "women" are seriously fucked up! There are real victims out there who are scarred for life. This is not a light topic or laughing matter!

 

As for how this subject is viewed every situation is different Hush's experience of enslavement is layers upon layers of sexual abuse and Jerry, I don't think anybody has made light of this subject. In a rape the mind can rationalize or even marginalize to cope with the overwhelming flood of emotions even to the point of calling it pleasurable if it needs to handle the situation, the fact remains that there is no right answer here. I once knew a young girl who after years of abuse who's mother was told that it was possible that her daughter would most likely either completely hate men and turn to women or become a complete whore, I found this out when I was visiting and this 11 year old who's sister and her would sit on my lap reached between my legs obviously grabbing for my privates when her mother wasn't in the room? I went directly to mom who handled it well and explained this all to me, as a self defense instructor and sexual educator it prompted me to learn more about sexual abuses and how the mind and body handles them!

 

maybe some people raped as a link is created between kidnapper and kidnapped like the Stockholm syndrome.

 

Psychologists would agree and have, when that young girl acted out toward me her therapist said that she had learned from her attacker (uncle) that it was a form of showing affection and love?

 

the fact that Hush calls BS is in itself quite telling....Pot. Kettle. Black?

 

I may have misused the term rape.
I had accepted the sexual relationship with one of the boys.
the girl and two boys arrived later and wanted to have sex without my consent.
do not beat me but I was too damn scared and I did all the boys and the girl wanted to do.
I was in apparent inability to say no.
the reason that I'm not opposed, in my opinion does not erase the abuse.
definitely more sweet boys would be having sex anyway and not scare me.

 

Though I'm sure you mean well (sincerely) don't presume to think you understand my experience or understanding in the slightest. I've experienced countless "forms" of rape over the years and so many times frankly I cannot even add them up. Not just in regimented settings, yet grab you from behind and drag you into the ally types. Besides that I have spoken with 100's of others who have been raped, numerous leading psychological & sociological experts on it and my experiences, and then finally studied all aspects of sexuality including rape simply to understand my own experiences and try to come to grips with them.

There is a massive, MASSIVE difference between sex and rape. The trouble is we tend to now group unwanted sexual contact either before or after (as guilt often makes some people claim rape) the act as rape and further class sex with those ignorant/young consenting or not as rape......All due to the gray areas and intentions from one side or the other.

The issue with youth much too vast a subject to bother with in this thread (or really in this forum due to the fuck-tards), yet it has nothing to do with Stockholm syndrome, nor does that apply to most other circumstances.

What I will say is this however......NO ONE raped wants to be "raped" again. Especially by the same rapist.......

It frankly pisses me off women and men who after the fact of consenting sex feel guilt and then to cover their ass want to call it rape. It pisses me off even more to see people wanting to jump on the rape bandwagon as though it's some badge of honor.....and it pisses me off most of all the dumb fuck threads and morons that try to make light of it, guess, assume, and 99.9% of it based on some fictional fantastical fantasy story written by men to jerk off to.

Rape to the victim is about shame, humiliation, violation, fear, hatred, pain, self loathing, etc., you name it. If it's negative then it all applies.........Not "I was raped but Ohhh I came so good I just have to get more".

In fact, if a victim cums during the act thats when the real self hate begins.........and for many women it makes then want to NEVER cum again.

Hush.......an alias

 

for the reasons you have listed I explained that it might have incorrectly used the word rape.

 

i was raped as a teenager by an ex. now...i love being rough in bed...love it. but if i ever seen him in public again...i would probably fucking vomit or kill him or maybe i would hide. the thought of him terrifies/makes me sick. all i know is it took me some time to be comfortable being "rough" again. there were time i would freak the fuck out if i was put in a position where my hands were not free during sex. i never came either as a matter of fact it was the most painful sex i have ever encountered.

 

No problem Laura I realize English may not be your first language......My comments were for those wanting to try and claim it's something they then want after.

There are many aspects of how our sexuality and fantasy changes after a negative experience. Some rather surprising and contrary to what you might think, yet some of the comments above are simply bunk.

Hush......an alias

 

You are a victim Hush. Men,who want that, see it and take.

 

If a man ever forced me I would kill him. hed better hope i didnt find him again b/c jail wouldnt scare me I'd get a weapon and do it. Rape is horrible and I dont even like to think about it

 

Rape has always been a sensitive subject for most females. The truth is we all have diferent fantasies, fetishes and games we like to play. Some of use enjoy rape while others have strong feelings against it.

 

For the record I have worked with W.O.A.R.(Women Organized Against Rape) in my years of self defense training including taking classes and sitting in on discussions with the real victims so I do sincerely empathize with your concerns as to how people view it. My answers were in the context of the questions and not trying to make light of a serious problem that I've stood up for in court with the victims as well as staying involved on the front lines to assure that women become more self aware of their rights and actions to prevent it and recover from it!